What's it like to waste people, narc?

One of the hardest parts about healing is realizing how much of your loving energy was wasted. In an abusive relationship, you try harder than ever before. And not only are these efforts unappreciated, they are spat back in your face with venomous contempt. This is why survivors often feel constantly fatigued and anxious - they are conditioned to believe that nothing they do will ever be good enough. In reality, there are millions of goodhearted people out there who would not only appreciate, but also reciprocate your love and better yet: generate it on their own. You are probably used to inspiring others, which feels hollow and exhausting after abuse. This is your soul trying to tell you: Relax. Let someone else do the inspiring for once.